In which I think about what an asshole I’ve always been, even to myself. I’ve turned into very nearly everything for which I have ever felt contempt. Here are some examples: Fat? Check. Pampered and lazy, with a litany of psychosomatic, social, and political complaints anyway? Check. Reaches a certain age and, unoriginally, watches English […]
In which I’m just watching my mind be an asshole, because that’s what you do. I smoked cigarettes for 30 years. I was at the point where my lungs felt dry, I couldn’t get a deep breath, and walking three blocks made me pant. I quit smoking by switching to vaping, because patches and gum […]
In which there was a sensation and I freaked the fuck out: another boring-ass post about my anxiety disorder, because I bring the content! Woke up weirdly early, like 7:30 or so, and though I did try, I couldn’t get back to sleep. Eventually got really hungry, as one does if she’s awake long enough, […]
In which there’s an appointment. It had clouded over a little, sure, and was only in the 50’s when I checked the weather, but it didn’t say anything about rain online. Notification on my phone said, at 1:46, when I checked, that the rain would end by 2 PM. I looked out the window but […]
I’m so fucking high strung, you guys. So I woke up this morning, had a hummus/tabouli/falafel/feta lettuce wrap, drank some water, decided being awake was stupid, and went back to bed ’til afternoon. Got up a second time, had some water, rearranged my very dirty hair, put on eyeliner, dressed, took my shit out of […]
In which there’s a map, and a bangle of sorts! Google Maps never really does well with the Greenway, but this is, more or less, my path for the day. (I still can’t tell, honestly, if I’m charmed by the knowledge that my Android phone tells Google Maps everywhere I go, or freaked out.) In […]
In which there’s a tostada. I made the salsas and the guac and fried the tortilla. I even put on a pot of pinto beans, but they’re not done yet. I mean, I made salsa. Look at this shit. And then about a third of the way through eating the glorious thing with the delicious […]
In which I rather complain a little. It’s 29F outside. I cracked the windows while I tidied did the dishes and made the bed, and it can’t be over 73F in here, but I’m overheating! Very hot water just used to be very hot water; these days it’s like I’m being tortured and my hands […]
In which I’m dieting. Tired (again) of being fat and miserable. Dieting (again) in an effort to be less fat and less miserable. As a vegetarian, I find it very difficult to do really low-carb, so I’m doing a combination of “as few carbs as possible” and calorie restriction. Eating a lot of eggs, tofu, […]
In which I even googled it. My tongue feels slightly too large for my mouth. My bite feels like it’s off. My mouth seems to be watering more than usual, but it’s hard to tell because normally I don’t notice how much I’m salivating. But today I’m super-aware of it. And it’s driving me nuts! […]
