In which I’m suddenly freezing! I don’t know if it’s being old, being fat, being pre-menopausal, or what, but my body’s not very good at temperature regulation anymore. I’m either way too hot or freezing; either opening windows and taking off socks and running fans, or layered up under a blanket. Fun with embodiment, I […]
In which there’s The Dread, aka my anxiety disorder. Had anxiety pretty bad yesterday, and during the night. Pretty anxious today, too. I know I’ve said this before, but the problem with anxiety and panic is this: Just because you’re paranoid doesn’t mean they’re not out to get you. In the same way, being deeply […]
In which I’m not very good at this stuff. My aunt is in town and offered to take us out to dinner tonight. I picked the restaurant closest to her hotel and it turned out to be kind of expensive, so I thought, hell, I never leave the house, and we’re going somewhere nice. Maybe […]
In which I tell you how it felt to run medium-distance sprints as a tween. I have never enjoyed exercise. I remember being in junior high school on the track team. Sucked at sprinting, sucked at distance, so they put me on the 200 meter. It was miserable. I could not figure out what in […]
In which I deleted them, because fuck it, amirite? I live in Minneapolis. People get shot and killed by cops here. The other day, a white woman got shot and killed by a black cop. The mayor’s tweeted concern and calls to action several times since. Out of curiosity I did a couple of searches, […]
In which I’m so lazy I can’t even relax properly. Thought I’d do some relaxing and fun Sunday afternoon painting, but after a few minutes of doodling I got distracted by nothing and abandoned it. Watched TV. Scrolled social media. Ate a bunch. Drank coffee. Organized some of the crap at my desk. Ah, Sunday!
In which I write about a toy. A doll. A temple idol, a spiritual tool. I’ve had an Amma doll for a long time, and over the years I’ve collected all the outfits and extras, and I keep it all in an old wicker picnic-style basket. I can dress her in her whites, or as […]
I’m so fucking high strung, you guys. So I woke up this morning, had a hummus/tabouli/falafel/feta lettuce wrap, drank some water, decided being awake was stupid, and went back to bed ’til afternoon. Got up a second time, had some water, rearranged my very dirty hair, put on eyeliner, dressed, took my shit out of […]
In which I catalog not terribly relevant stuff! Realizing that your youth is well and truly over is so fucking weird. One, you now know that people don’t even know what youth is until they’ve left it. Two, now you’re a grown up, and you’ve finally gotten some wisdom and some work ethic, and now […]
In which I rather complain a little. It’s 29F outside. I cracked the windows while I tidied did the dishes and made the bed, and it can’t be over 73F in here, but I’m overheating! Very hot water just used to be very hot water; these days it’s like I’m being tortured and my hands […]
