Does ‘Spotting’ Foretell a Miscarriage?

Yes.

Fuck yes it does. All those articles to the contrary are bullshit, designed to minimize panic. The simple truth is that when you’re pregnant and you bleed, you’re about to have a miscarriage. Trust me, I’m an expert on this.

I just went pee and there it was: a tiny little bit of pink on the TP. This is exactly how it started last time. First, an innocent streak of color. Next, bleeding… days and daysof light bleeding. Then weird, dark bleeding.

Then horrible, gut-wrenching cramps, and then my period will really start.

In a few days my hormones will be so utterly fucked up that I won’t be able to work or see anyone other than Brett, and him I’ll just cry all over. The poor, poor man.

Miscarriage makes you insane. Literally. It’s a state of temporary insanity. You know you’re acting nuts, but you can’t stop it ’cause your brain is full of weird hormones and chemicals and you can’t tell if you’re coming or going.

You know what? Screw this. I obviously can’t have a baby because my hormones are too fucked up, and I’m beginning to get too old for a first child anyway. I do get bummed about losing potential babies, but not half as much as I hate going through the suffering of the purely physical aspects of miscarriage: it’s hard and it hurts.

I should get my tubes tied and resign myself to a life of spending all our money on ourselves and our dogs.
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