In which I address the Universe at large.
Dear Universe,
I’m ready to do something else now, pleez.
This past year has been wonderfully safe and nurturing, and I really needed it. But now I’m ready to have a job that uses my brain, and a living situation over which I have a little control.
Two things seem to be on the horizon:
One is my upcoming visit to the left coast. I’ll be visiting Portland and Walla Walla, and if you feel like it you could totally give me a Big Hint… say about a job opportunity or music or being needed by my family or something. Then I could pack my shit into the jeep and move back out there, and that would be way cool.
The other is moving with Shadow Girl and her kids and maybe Bghead into a big house somewhere in town. It would be fun to spend a year with kids around — Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas, Easter! How kick ass would that be? I think it would be great to live in a big ol’ house with a bunch of people and re-learn how to play. My ex-employer called me Monday to see if I was interested in coming back, so with a second job I could afford this new living situation.
So: should I dig in here, or leave? I don’t know which idea to focus my energy on, because they both have their upsides. It would be cool to stay here as a member of the human race rather than a depressed lump. It would also be exciting to abandon Fairfield altogether and go back out to where the weather’s totally better.
I guess I’m just askin’ for some kinda sign to help me decide where to place my energies. Thanks, Universe. You rock! I couldn’t be here without you!
Sincerely,
Mush
In other news, The Curse has arrived so I’ll be doing nothing of any import this weekend save lying around. I’d planned to take everything to the laundromat tomorrow – clothes, bedding, etc. – but we’ll see how it goes.
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Perhaps if you had addressed the VUniverse, you would have answers by now. Alas, you did not.
*smooches*
I totally forgot! *smacks head* -m
i’ll send some reiki to you. maybe that will help you come to a conclusion as to what you should do.
in the nonce, keep taking care of yourself.
You’ll be able to gauge the climate (economic, emotional and otherwise) on your visit to the left coast. Something’ll either pull you or push you, Mush. And I’m not referring to incidentals, such as waaay better fish, hipper bars and whatnot. For every gain there is a loss (and, obviously, vice versa), and it sounds like you’re really starting to come out of the fog of the last year. Your life will be good… after all, it is what you will make it. ( :
They talk about the fog of war, but never the fog of divorce. Maybe I’ll write a book about it. -m
You’re welcome to come up here to Fairbanks and spend the winter…
Should be easy to find you a job, apartment, and winter singing gig here, pretty strong arts thing happening here. There’s even opera tonight, and a Shakespear theater all winter.
I’ll be staying at the RV park associated with http://www.icealaska.com, home of the world ice carving competition, it’s been around for 19 years so if you’ve ever wondered if you could be a sculpturist (sp?), nows your chance…
Run. Run far, run fast and maybe you’ll escape the elasticity that seems to eventually slam us all back into this little realm of unreality we always end up calling home…at least for a little while.
….or not…. đŸ™‚
…and when you get older, glance over your shoulder, back, just to see if it’s real…
bran looks over at my computer and says, “oh, goblinbox! that sounds like something i want to be doing.”
that’s just how hot you really are đŸ™‚
ROFLMAO! -m
Well i do have to admit that I would love for nothing else for you to rot in this town but then I would just be selfish. You should go and do whatever makes you happy or at least try to find what is going to make you happy, your far to bright and great to sit in your blue room and wait for it to come to you. I think you already know what it is you want to do, so JUST DO IT!!!!! I love you now go be great.
I will. *smooch* -m
I remember being somewhere close to this last year when I was getting out of the military. Ya know, it’s you guys’ support really made a difference. Like I keep telling myself like YOU told me, faith and trust and willingness will take you a long way toward happiness đŸ˜€
I do hope it’ll work out for you, and I think it will, you deserve it GURL!!!